Monday, May 11, 2009

My Weekend In Waco

Since I'm not studying for exams I am going to talk about what happened this weekend just to get it out of the way. I'm actually kinda tired of talking about it (or just tired in general) but Claire needs an update and Alex needs to know what actually went down in Baylorville.

So I was at Walmart buying my mom flowers for Mother's Day last Friday and this cute guy got behind me in line and I was talking to Claire at the time so I decided to tell her about it because we do that from time to time. The text said, "Cute guy in line behind me at Walmart." I accidentally sent the text to my mom.

Me and my mom have had a pretty shaky relationship for about the past two years. A mix of really good and really bad and that text she got stirred up a lot of old feelings she has towards me being gay. She called me on my way out of Walmart and told me she got the text and she said she was angry and hurt and stuff. Everything was sort of left in the air until we came back from Waco.

When we were actually in Waco everything was fine. There was no mention of what happened. She didn't tell my dad and she was completely normal to me which was weird. Usually when stuff like this happens we avoid each other at all costs for a few days and slowly work our way back up, but this was more of a "let's keep stuff the same until it eats away at us" deal.

The Sunday we got back she told me again how hurt she was and how if she wanted to she could look up my texts but I know she wouldn't because she's scared of what she might read. And I am acutally really glad about that because I do not need her going through my text. Then she says that I am two different people and whatnot.

Of course I am two different people. How can she expect me to be how I am around my friends if she doesn't accept me for being gay? I am going to be more open towards my friends because they don't care. We are on tow different pages and I don't know what she wants from me.

Anyway all is "better" now and so we will have to just see what happens.

Thatcher

2 comments:

The Horrible People said...

"better"

explain.

Claire

The Horrible People said...

Better like we don't talk about it kinda thing

Thatcher