NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!

Okay, so. Tonight was my "date" night with Drew. I got off work, came home, put on a dress and redid my makeup and made my hair as big as possible. Keep in mind, I wasn't necessarily looking forward to the date because I undeniably knew how it was going to end but wanted to make it look like I actually wanted to be there.

I drive to Arlington (no easy feat without Thatcher's navigating skills) and show up to the Simply Fondue restaurant about 45 minutes early. I figured there would be bad traffic but it all stopped after 121 so I had gotten there earlier than expected but there was a Half Price Book Store right down the lot so I just went in there to kill some time. I felt pretty ridiculous being in my four inch heels and looking for On The Road. Basically, I looked out of place.

I texted Drew saying I had gotten there early and was wandering around Half Price so whenever he got there, he should should just text me and I'd walk back to the restaurant. Not 30 seconds goes by before I hear a "You always arrive so early!" and see Drew walking towards me in Half Price. He looks at me, the ole' up and down, if you will and says "You look really nice." We doddle in the store for about 15 more minutes then walk over to the restaurant.

When we get to the resturanat, I can already tell this is going to be an awkward evening seeing as how this is the most romantic atmosphere I've ever been in. It's a very dimly lit place with smooth jazz playing in the background and everyone there is in "couple mode." I kidd you not, there were people feeing each other chocolate dipped strawberries.

The waiter sits us down and just to add to my pain he lites a candle between us then walks away. I'll skip the details of the meal because it's far too complicated for me to explain. 4 courses. Salad, cheese fondue, entree, and chocolate fondue. In this time I had managed to almost set Drew on fire and there was a bug in my tea which resulted in more tea and the apologies of the manager (he did not however offer to compensate for the meal, haha)

The bill comes and I whip out my debit card yelling "Let me pay for my half!"

Drew: Haha, don't worry about it!
Alex: No seriously, I want to pay for my half! I insist!
Drew: No! Tonight is my treat!

I then steal the check only to see that the whole thing had cost $120 bucks not including tip. HOLY CHRIST. The food wasn't even THAT good. Drew then grabs it back from me then slips his card in the booklet and hands it to the waiter! I mean, REALLY?!

We leave and Drew walks me to my car and I know the impending doom is about to unfold. I try to stall the situation by doing things like taking off my shoes, then fiddling with my keys to put my shoes in the car. After there is nothing left to stall the situation he finally says:

Drew: Alex.
Alex:....er...yes? *by this time, his arms are wrapped around my waist*
Drew: I had a really great time tonight.
Alex. Er, same here. Why wouldn't you let me pay my half?
Drew: ...seriously? Oh, come on!
Alex:...
Drew: Look, I remember what you said a couple months ago about just wanting to be friends but I was wondering if maybe you changed your mind. Would you be interested in having a relationship with me? *hands still around waist and even though I hate to admit it, it felt nice*
Alex: I'm sorry. The summer is just an inconvenient time to have a relationship. And I don't want to lead you on so I'd really like it if we could just be friends. (or something like that...)
Drew: Yeah, that's fine.

And then you know what I did?! I FUCKING KISSED HIM! Why am I so fucking stupid?!?! I have ruined everything! And you know what makes it even worse?! I kissed him again after that! DAMN.

Don't get me wrong the guy is nice but I'm not romantically attracted to him. Now, I'm probably going to end up marrying him. He's the Steve to my Miranda!

And you know what sucks?! Why can't guys I actually like do things like that for me.?!

Anyways, on a good note. The new stadium looks awesome!

Alex