I really have nothing to talk about. No cute boys, no family drama, no new clothes. The only thing really interesting is that we think Kelly from work is putting in her two weeks (hopefully it's true because that girl is a lazy mess - she's in her forties by the way.)
I've started exercising. I want to be drop dead drool worthy by the time I move to Austin next year and I want my clothes to hang off of me perfectly. The healthiness is just a side effect.
Summer school starts the eighth and I am excited. I need something new to talk about. Eye candy (by the way I am a little saddened that my life revolves around seconds of cute sightings.) I also think I need a new direction in life. I've always sort of identified with wanting to be a screenwriter but now I am looking into journalism because I'm liking this blog thing. Hopefully turn it into a career of column writing. Get all Sex and the City with it. That would be such fun. I think I want that. Column writing then move to screenwriting. New life plan. Done and done.
Thatcher
Sunday, May 31, 2009
UM, YES.
I'm putting an end to this sad post drought. I have nothing to say really. Nothing interesting.
Summer classes start this Friday, sucks, but at least I will have something to keep me occupied.
My parents are talking Hawaii in July instead of going out of the country, economy and swine and all.
Which leads to the next point, I've picked up my exercise habits again. That sentence doesn't actually make sense but you can pretend. I ran thirteen miles last week. Today I ran four, so that is seventeen miles now. I'm starting to like it now, which is helpful. I motivate myself by saying I won't be dead at the end of my run, so why the hell not.
I received three books last Thursday. So, that will keep me occupied too. You know what else will keep me occupied? Some new posts! Haha
In addition to other things, I also got a mug that reads "World's Best Boss." Hoping that reference is received successfully.
Claire
Summer classes start this Friday, sucks, but at least I will have something to keep me occupied.
My parents are talking Hawaii in July instead of going out of the country, economy and swine and all.
Which leads to the next point, I've picked up my exercise habits again. That sentence doesn't actually make sense but you can pretend. I ran thirteen miles last week. Today I ran four, so that is seventeen miles now. I'm starting to like it now, which is helpful. I motivate myself by saying I won't be dead at the end of my run, so why the hell not.
I received three books last Thursday. So, that will keep me occupied too. You know what else will keep me occupied? Some new posts! Haha
In addition to other things, I also got a mug that reads "World's Best Boss." Hoping that reference is received successfully.
Claire
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
That College Feeling
Being a commuter, I don't feel like I'm in college. So there are moments when I'm really feeling the college vibe, if you will. For example, having lunch in the union with classmates, or spending time in a friend's dorm.
Well today, I felt it man. Kaitlin and I celebrated our last day of class together by hitting up a dormitory hall cafeteria, and then heading to what is known as "the square." Pictures follow.
Some nice Bruce Hall Cafe food. We had NO idea what we were doing, or where to go for what...
Which resulted in this: putting honey on our Belgian waffles (You cook them up yourself; super cool, super college). I didn't eat them, honey doesn't go with waffles and butter.
Stepped into the cutest boutique ever. Expensive, but still adorable. Cool chair, right? Another shot of it:
I want this chair.
And the highlight of our trip: We had a go at what everyone keeps telling me is "the best ice cream in Denton." I have to agree. I had cookie dough (they had a bunch of exotic flavors, but I'm not too risky myself so cookie dough it was), and Kaitlin had something weird but interesting.
The atmosphere was very diner, which made me miss New Jersey. But nonetheless, place was very cool. Ice cream comes really fairly priced, and they serve other things too (simple hot dogs, and sandwiches etc.). Apparently it's usually busier, but it's finals week and almost everyone has evacuated the campus for summer fun.
Well today, I felt it man. Kaitlin and I celebrated our last day of class together by hitting up a dormitory hall cafeteria, and then heading to what is known as "the square." Pictures follow.
Some nice Bruce Hall Cafe food. We had NO idea what we were doing, or where to go for what...
Which resulted in this: putting honey on our Belgian waffles (You cook them up yourself; super cool, super college). I didn't eat them, honey doesn't go with waffles and butter.
Stepped into the cutest boutique ever. Expensive, but still adorable. Cool chair, right? Another shot of it:
I want this chair.
And the highlight of our trip: We had a go at what everyone keeps telling me is "the best ice cream in Denton." I have to agree. I had cookie dough (they had a bunch of exotic flavors, but I'm not too risky myself so cookie dough it was), and Kaitlin had something weird but interesting.
The atmosphere was very diner, which made me miss New Jersey. But nonetheless, place was very cool. Ice cream comes really fairly priced, and they serve other things too (simple hot dogs, and sandwiches etc.). Apparently it's usually busier, but it's finals week and almost everyone has evacuated the campus for summer fun.
That was my day full of college feelings, which happened on what was ALMOST my last day of freshman year. I'm gonna miss Kaitlin because she is transferring out, but she will be back to visit. I made her promise. She comes back and we go eat at JJ's pizza in the square, and I won't sell my giant chest up the river.
One last final on Friday at 8. Then 2 weeks of summer! THEN SUMMER SCHOOL. Jah jah jah joy.
Claire
One last final on Friday at 8. Then 2 weeks of summer! THEN SUMMER SCHOOL. Jah jah jah joy.
Claire
Monday, May 11, 2009
My Weekend In Waco
Since I'm not studying for exams I am going to talk about what happened this weekend just to get it out of the way. I'm actually kinda tired of talking about it (or just tired in general) but Claire needs an update and Alex needs to know what actually went down in Baylorville.
So I was at Walmart buying my mom flowers for Mother's Day last Friday and this cute guy got behind me in line and I was talking to Claire at the time so I decided to tell her about it because we do that from time to time. The text said, "Cute guy in line behind me at Walmart." I accidentally sent the text to my mom.
Me and my mom have had a pretty shaky relationship for about the past two years. A mix of really good and really bad and that text she got stirred up a lot of old feelings she has towards me being gay. She called me on my way out of Walmart and told me she got the text and she said she was angry and hurt and stuff. Everything was sort of left in the air until we came back from Waco.
When we were actually in Waco everything was fine. There was no mention of what happened. She didn't tell my dad and she was completely normal to me which was weird. Usually when stuff like this happens we avoid each other at all costs for a few days and slowly work our way back up, but this was more of a "let's keep stuff the same until it eats away at us" deal.
The Sunday we got back she told me again how hurt she was and how if she wanted to she could look up my texts but I know she wouldn't because she's scared of what she might read. And I am acutally really glad about that because I do not need her going through my text. Then she says that I am two different people and whatnot.
Of course I am two different people. How can she expect me to be how I am around my friends if she doesn't accept me for being gay? I am going to be more open towards my friends because they don't care. We are on tow different pages and I don't know what she wants from me.
Anyway all is "better" now and so we will have to just see what happens.
Thatcher
So I was at Walmart buying my mom flowers for Mother's Day last Friday and this cute guy got behind me in line and I was talking to Claire at the time so I decided to tell her about it because we do that from time to time. The text said, "Cute guy in line behind me at Walmart." I accidentally sent the text to my mom.
Me and my mom have had a pretty shaky relationship for about the past two years. A mix of really good and really bad and that text she got stirred up a lot of old feelings she has towards me being gay. She called me on my way out of Walmart and told me she got the text and she said she was angry and hurt and stuff. Everything was sort of left in the air until we came back from Waco.
When we were actually in Waco everything was fine. There was no mention of what happened. She didn't tell my dad and she was completely normal to me which was weird. Usually when stuff like this happens we avoid each other at all costs for a few days and slowly work our way back up, but this was more of a "let's keep stuff the same until it eats away at us" deal.
The Sunday we got back she told me again how hurt she was and how if she wanted to she could look up my texts but I know she wouldn't because she's scared of what she might read. And I am acutally really glad about that because I do not need her going through my text. Then she says that I am two different people and whatnot.
Of course I am two different people. How can she expect me to be how I am around my friends if she doesn't accept me for being gay? I am going to be more open towards my friends because they don't care. We are on tow different pages and I don't know what she wants from me.
Anyway all is "better" now and so we will have to just see what happens.
Thatcher
FINALS WEEK
finals week can suck it.
i don't have class today, just a paper due at midnight online.
haven't started that paper yet.
chem final tomorrow at 7 am. shits.
bio final wednesday at 8 am.
mandarin final friday 8 am.
i need to start memorizing those characters.
Claire
Sunday, May 10, 2009
I've never been so tired in my life.
I feel like my body is not capable of moving, despite the fingers working, mind you. I took a Tylenol PM last night because my muscles were hurting due to extensive work out (swimsuit season is approaching) and I ended up sleeping for 12 hours. I feel great but tired at the same time, ya know?
I don't know where to start studying for the finals. I could just go in the order in which I take them but I'm at the point where I just don't care anymore.
....I want a cheeseburger
Alex
I don't know where to start studying for the finals. I could just go in the order in which I take them but I'm at the point where I just don't care anymore.
....I want a cheeseburger
Alex
Friday, May 8, 2009
one thing to say
today i woke up and there was a TON of candy, cookies, and single serving chips on the table. turns out my dad was assigned to the cardinal's charter plane, and they chose to snub all the goodies on board. king size snickers, baby ruths, m&m's, yum. dad brought some of the loot home. shhh.
then i remembered what i learned in biology: run far and fast when you see the words "partially hydrogenated."
but that king size snickers was looking at me. laughing at me. SNICKERing at me. so i ate it to shut that bitch up.
yeah, i know. that's what she said.
Claire
then i remembered what i learned in biology: run far and fast when you see the words "partially hydrogenated."
but that king size snickers was looking at me. laughing at me. SNICKERing at me. so i ate it to shut that bitch up.
yeah, i know. that's what she said.
Claire
As we go on....
Don't you love just love that the end of school always brings out personal revelations in everyone? I figured out mine and they are as follows:
1. I need to work harder. For so long I've just been accepting B's as doable grades but now it's time to use a little elbow grease and get my mentality back into shape! I'll be taking classes I enjoy next semester so I should try everything in my power to make sure my next three years if college go as planned!
2. I need to get over the past and just stop thinking about him. It's funny, whenever I say it out loud it totally makes sense but I feel I need to write it down to remind myself. I've come to realize that he never appreciated me and despite his efforts to convince me that we're friends, I know we can never actually be friends because of our history together. He doesn't even have an interest in being my friend and he probably just wants me around so he has someone to bitch to whenever he's upset. I've had it. He's not worth it.
3. It's summer and even though I have a job which will keep me busy, I am going to spend as much of my summer as possible seeing friends and making the most of it! I feel like I'm growing apart from friends which, in reality, is only natural. But there are those that I demand to keep around and grow old with!
4. Europe didn't happen but I'm not going to let it bring me down! I'm going to save money and be on top of the ball next year when the time comes around so I can definitely go abroad!
5. I'm still not entirely sure what to do with my life but I'm going to try and organize my goals this summer to figure out an idea.
So, that's it for now. I'm sure I'll add more to the list as time goes on but I've made a pretty good dent for one morning.
Next week is the last week of school. I could say I'm excited but I like being here at school even though I'm happy about seeing old friends. I'm not too worried about any of my finals and packing is coming along nicely.
Till another day...
Alex
1. I need to work harder. For so long I've just been accepting B's as doable grades but now it's time to use a little elbow grease and get my mentality back into shape! I'll be taking classes I enjoy next semester so I should try everything in my power to make sure my next three years if college go as planned!
2. I need to get over the past and just stop thinking about him. It's funny, whenever I say it out loud it totally makes sense but I feel I need to write it down to remind myself. I've come to realize that he never appreciated me and despite his efforts to convince me that we're friends, I know we can never actually be friends because of our history together. He doesn't even have an interest in being my friend and he probably just wants me around so he has someone to bitch to whenever he's upset. I've had it. He's not worth it.
3. It's summer and even though I have a job which will keep me busy, I am going to spend as much of my summer as possible seeing friends and making the most of it! I feel like I'm growing apart from friends which, in reality, is only natural. But there are those that I demand to keep around and grow old with!
4. Europe didn't happen but I'm not going to let it bring me down! I'm going to save money and be on top of the ball next year when the time comes around so I can definitely go abroad!
5. I'm still not entirely sure what to do with my life but I'm going to try and organize my goals this summer to figure out an idea.
So, that's it for now. I'm sure I'll add more to the list as time goes on but I've made a pretty good dent for one morning.
Next week is the last week of school. I could say I'm excited but I like being here at school even though I'm happy about seeing old friends. I'm not too worried about any of my finals and packing is coming along nicely.
Till another day...
Alex
Summer, Kind of Needing It
The end of the year is here and I thank God for it. I need it so badly. I am supposed to be studying for a biology test and my psychology final tomorrow but I can't really focus. I can never focus when I really need to. That's what I don't like about me. I procrastinate until the very last second.
This year has been a mix of mess and fortune. Brandon left and came back, I stayed and stayed. I sort of gained my independence when he was gone for a semester. I missed him a lot and we talked like every day but I kinda liked not comparing myself to anyone for a while. I was glad he came back because he is happier and I had a friend at NCTC but now he's going to UNT in the fall and I am looking forward to my independence. I want to better identify myself as myself and not just Brandon's best friend. That's how I see myself for some reason. I think it's an insecurity thing; comparing yourself to someone else and seeing yourself as an extension of that person and not as your own self. Does that make sense? I think it does. Basically, I want to find myself.
Next semester I have to work harder. No distractions unless it's a boy who is into me. That is a reasonable distraction I can work with, CFC I'm talking to you. I have to work my butt of if I want to get out of the suburbs and that's what I want to do. I need to focus on me. Better self esteem, better study habits, better clothing, better everything. I don't want to wait around anymore, I'm gonna make it happen. Whatever it is.
Thatcher
This year has been a mix of mess and fortune. Brandon left and came back, I stayed and stayed. I sort of gained my independence when he was gone for a semester. I missed him a lot and we talked like every day but I kinda liked not comparing myself to anyone for a while. I was glad he came back because he is happier and I had a friend at NCTC but now he's going to UNT in the fall and I am looking forward to my independence. I want to better identify myself as myself and not just Brandon's best friend. That's how I see myself for some reason. I think it's an insecurity thing; comparing yourself to someone else and seeing yourself as an extension of that person and not as your own self. Does that make sense? I think it does. Basically, I want to find myself.
Next semester I have to work harder. No distractions unless it's a boy who is into me. That is a reasonable distraction I can work with, CFC I'm talking to you. I have to work my butt of if I want to get out of the suburbs and that's what I want to do. I need to focus on me. Better self esteem, better study habits, better clothing, better everything. I don't want to wait around anymore, I'm gonna make it happen. Whatever it is.
Thatcher
Sunday, May 3, 2009
I am as broke as it gets.
I am fairly certain I have less than ten dollars altogether, excluding my savings. It's good to be me. So to help alleviate this problem, I'm going to go sell things. Books, clothes, anything that can be purchased. Because I own a lot of stuff.
Anyway, I played tennis for three hours today because I decided to stop being lazy and whiny about my clothes all the time. So there, I'm fixing it. Also, I played tennis for two hours last Friday with a friend and my sister, who we picked up from what was essentially a emergency swine evacuation. She doesn't have school all this week.
I have my Mandarin oral presentation tomorrow, I'm up first. I could throw up now. I hate that shit; talking in a foreign language in front of others... no. On Wednesday, I've got a biology lab final: Half conceptual, half practical. Stupid.
I bought new shamps and conditioner, and tried it out today. Aveeno makes hair products now, and they're really good.
Obviously I'm just finding random things to say to put off studying, so I'll be leaving now.
Thatcher: It's almost summer, we need to get some work done.
Alex: I watched a bunch of videos with us on youtube, we're fun. I love youtube.
Claire
Anyway, I played tennis for three hours today because I decided to stop being lazy and whiny about my clothes all the time. So there, I'm fixing it. Also, I played tennis for two hours last Friday with a friend and my sister, who we picked up from what was essentially a emergency swine evacuation. She doesn't have school all this week.
I have my Mandarin oral presentation tomorrow, I'm up first. I could throw up now. I hate that shit; talking in a foreign language in front of others... no. On Wednesday, I've got a biology lab final: Half conceptual, half practical. Stupid.
I bought new shamps and conditioner, and tried it out today. Aveeno makes hair products now, and they're really good.
Obviously I'm just finding random things to say to put off studying, so I'll be leaving now.
Thatcher: It's almost summer, we need to get some work done.
Alex: I watched a bunch of videos with us on youtube, we're fun. I love youtube.
Claire
Saturday, May 2, 2009
Nice to See You
I have done nothing all day. I went to work, which was so-so because Shiloah called in sick so it was just me, Greg, and the ever fascinating Kelly. She just annoys me, the things she does just annoy me. Like hanging around me while I'm with a customer or answering the phone when she sees that I am about to answer it. Whatever, just annoyed. Oh and typing "Shiloah" reminded me of our hang out day we are gonna have coming up pretty soon.
Here's how it started:
Friday she walks by me and says "Oh, guess who I saw at the Chili's on 2499."
Me: "Who?"
Shiloah: "Kirk."
Me: "WHA???" (drool + anime stiff body fall)
Kirk used to work with us and I had the BIGGEST I NEED TO HAVE YOU CRUSH on him!!! He went to Flower Mound HS and he was a wrestler and he was so, so hot. Oh, and he has a motorcycle!!! How sexy is that?? I remember him coming into work once and he took off his motorcycle helmet and flipped his hair and I melted into an Alex Mack knockoff. I have never seen anything more beautiful. And he has a tattoo. Big tattoo going up the side of his abs (perfect abs) that reads Saint going one way and Sinner going the other. He showed me once and I could have died right there.
Shiloah told me that he chopped off all of his hair (he does that for wrestling) and his face cleared up and that if he still had his god-like hair then he would be a ten. A TEN!!! Tens are such a rarity in the suburbs. I must see him. So Shiloah and I planned to go see Obsessed and go t0 Chili's. I have never been more excited for anything ever. I'm dying just posting about it. I remember the first time I saw him I was in the showroom and he walked in and I nearly fell of the ladder because I was doing a total George O'Malley double take (he's so good at those-for reference watch the Grey's Anatomy Season 3 finale, Didn't We Almost Have It All.)
I feel like I'm painting this out to be more than it was. I had an unrequited crush on him. Like, the biggest crush I've ever had on anyone. I truly, truly liked him. A lot. We flirted a lot too. And we got along really well. Our work relationship was second only to the one between Shiloah and I. We would go back and forth with witty, insulting one liners. He was hot and funny, my perfect guy. I like to thing of him as the crush who got away because even though I pretty much knew he was straight I always thought he would be open to the idea of me. Or I just manipulated the signals so I could feel better about the whole situation. Either way nothing ever happened. He made me clumsy and blush as much as a black person could, and I felt totally comfortable around him.
I would love to see him again.
Thatcher
Here's how it started:
Friday she walks by me and says "Oh, guess who I saw at the Chili's on 2499."
Me: "Who?"
Shiloah: "Kirk."
Me: "WHA???" (drool + anime stiff body fall)
Kirk used to work with us and I had the BIGGEST I NEED TO HAVE YOU CRUSH on him!!! He went to Flower Mound HS and he was a wrestler and he was so, so hot. Oh, and he has a motorcycle!!! How sexy is that?? I remember him coming into work once and he took off his motorcycle helmet and flipped his hair and I melted into an Alex Mack knockoff. I have never seen anything more beautiful. And he has a tattoo. Big tattoo going up the side of his abs (perfect abs) that reads Saint going one way and Sinner going the other. He showed me once and I could have died right there.
Shiloah told me that he chopped off all of his hair (he does that for wrestling) and his face cleared up and that if he still had his god-like hair then he would be a ten. A TEN!!! Tens are such a rarity in the suburbs. I must see him. So Shiloah and I planned to go see Obsessed and go t0 Chili's. I have never been more excited for anything ever. I'm dying just posting about it. I remember the first time I saw him I was in the showroom and he walked in and I nearly fell of the ladder because I was doing a total George O'Malley double take (he's so good at those-for reference watch the Grey's Anatomy Season 3 finale, Didn't We Almost Have It All.)
I feel like I'm painting this out to be more than it was. I had an unrequited crush on him. Like, the biggest crush I've ever had on anyone. I truly, truly liked him. A lot. We flirted a lot too. And we got along really well. Our work relationship was second only to the one between Shiloah and I. We would go back and forth with witty, insulting one liners. He was hot and funny, my perfect guy. I like to thing of him as the crush who got away because even though I pretty much knew he was straight I always thought he would be open to the idea of me. Or I just manipulated the signals so I could feel better about the whole situation. Either way nothing ever happened. He made me clumsy and blush as much as a black person could, and I felt totally comfortable around him.
I would love to see him again.
Thatcher